How could I have known that you'd ever say goodbye
And now I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end the way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain
But I'd of had to miss the dance
Holding you I held everything
For a moment wasn't I a king
But if I'd only known how the king would fall
Hey who's to say you know I might have chanced it all
And now I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end the way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain
But I'd of had to miss the dance
Yes my life is better left to chance
I could have missed the pain but I'd of had to miss the dance
To Michael David Huser,
Hi, Michael how are you doing, I'm doing great. I am realy sad that you are gone. I can't wait till I can see you again. Mom is realy taking this hard. I mean she should be. We left out some food for you. I hope you eat it. Some of the poems are very good. I was wandering if you realy meant what you did. I wrote this poem for you
I see a face shining down with deep brown eyes, it's watching me to know that I'm ok, to make sure I don't take a fall and end it all. I see a face watching me upon my place to know that I'm safe, up to this day.
So how did you like it. I really miss you. Your kids are so cute. When I said goodbye I never thought it would be forever. I've had this question in my head for a long time. Did you fight to live I mean realy fight to stay on earth. I would write to you more often if only I knew exacly what to say.
I also was wandering if it was you who played the song Mama, for mom. Why did you ever start using drugs. What is Heaven like? Do you wish you were back on earth with me and Brock.
I try really hard to work in school. But sometimes I can't because I keep thinking about you. At school we are in more than 1 classroom. My first period I have protime. In second period I have Social Studies. Third period I have Language-Arts. Fourth period I have Health. Then in fifth period I go to Art. Then it's lunch. After lunch I have Math wich is my favorite subject. Eighth period I have Sience. After sience is Reading I like reading. I have two tenth periods and they are chorus and orchestra. That is my whole day of school.
My locker is number 188. My locker combo is 0-30-48{shh, don't tell it's a secret. Well that takes care of that. I realy like chating with you Michael. But I need to start getting ready for bed so sweet dreams and don't let the bed bugs bite. Take care I love you Michael.
Michael has since the day he was born and will be until the day I die, been one of the most important thing in my life. It has always been me and Mikey against the world. And even though Michael is not here physically, he will always be with me in spirit.
Michael was a beautiful person, he brought joy and happiness to mine and so many other peoples lives, I can't even begin to list the number of people he touched in his very short 20 years here on earth. Once you knew my Michael, you could never forget him, you could not help but love him. He had a huge heart and would do anything to make another person feel better.
His smile, his laughter, his beautiful sense of humor and his very caring ways will never be forgotten. I miss my baby so much, I still wait for him to come walking through the door, saying "hi mom, what ya got to eat" , I still wait for his phone calls, he never could go to long without talking to me.
Michael made some bad choices in his life, which led to his death, but through it all, Michael always stayed the beautiful loving and caring person that he always was. Even though he could not stop his own addiction from taking over his life, he continually tried to help those around him with their own addictions and problems, he was a kind person with so much feeling.
The one thing I will always remember about my loving son is that he was never afraid to feel, never afraid to show that he loved, that he felt, if I cried he cried, if I hurt he hurt. I hope now Michael, you hurt no more and cry no more, even though I will continue to hurt and shed tears every day. My heart aches for you. Knowing your spirit is with me, by my side always will comfort me so much.
Michael left this life on earth way too soon, his 2 sons will never know what a wonderfull daddy they have, they will never know or feel how much love he has for them. Michael was a great father, no daddy could love their children more than Michael did. Through those of us left behind, we will keep Michael's memory alive in our hearts and through us his sons will know him.
Not even death can stop the bond Michael and I shared, he is with me in everything I do, he is with me wherever I go and always will be. I feel him always with me. It brings me comfort, when I feel like giving up, that I can't bear the pain of life without him, my Mikey is there holding me up, giving me the strength to go on.
I don't know how long it will be, but I do know that one day, I will see his beautiful face again. I will feel his arms around me and we will be together for eternity. Until then Michael will live forever in my heart and in the hearts of all who knew him.
I love you Michael, so very much. And I miss you more than words can say.
"Do you love Me?
Do you wanna be my friend?"
Looking back on the memory
of the dance we shared,
beneath the stars above,
for a moment all the world was right.
How was I to know
that you'd ever say goodbye?
And now I'm glad I didn't know
the way it all would end,
the way it all would go.
Our lives are better left to chance.
I could have missed the pain,
but I'd have had to miss the dance.
Garth Brooks, The Dance
Over and over, you will ask "Why?"
It is a question you must ask.
Though you may never find an answer
Michael's family each share some fond memories
of Michael. We would need endless pages to express all that we feel in our hearts.............
In a way, I feel as though Mikey's death has helped my with my 3 girls and staying away from drugs. I thank you Mikey. But I wish I would have known you a little better. I did see the good side of you, and you were a hoot to be around. My girls adored you, especially Kadi. She still talks about you, and she still has a picture of you and a flower from your funeral on her entertainment stand. I don't think she will ever get rid of that. I hope Grandma Koury is taking good care of you. I'm sure she is. You are probablly up there playing referee for her and Grandpa. lol Some day we will all be together and we can laugh again. Until then, I promise to help your mom in any way I know how. She has her good days and bad days, but we are all entitled to that.
Love Always,
Your Cousin Jodi
My soul can find no staircase to heaven
unless it be through earth's loveliness.
(Michelangelo)
It is good to have an end to journey toward;
but it is the journey that matters
at the end.
(Ursula LeGuin)
"To live in the hearts of those we leave behind is not to die"
I can only repeat what Michael's Mother has already said. I was there in the delivery room and watched Michael take his first breath. I was also at the hospital that dreadful night and watched my precious Mikey take his last breath. But I will always be grateful for the 20 years I had this very special person in my life. And he was special. And ,like his Mother, I will never forget his sweet voice as he came rushing into my home calling "Hi Grandma. I'm home". He loved it when I changed the words of "Your Are My Sunshine" to "You Are My Mikey", and he always reminded me if I ever forgot. He was one of the most caring and loving people I have ever known. When I cried he cried with me, and when I laughed, he laughed too. Now my sunshine is gone and I miss him so very much. One day I know I will see him again and when I do I will sing: "There is my sunshine, my only sunshine". Rest in peace Mikey. I will never forget you and I will always love you.
